On May 12th and 13th, 2012, one of my major life goals was accomplished. I graduated from college, and it was everything i thought it would be. Going to the RAC that Saturday, wearing my cap and gown and seeing all of the other psychology graduates there, lined up, made me realize that I, indeed, was graduating. iT WAS REAL. i never really felt like a college graduate up until that moment. the idea of graduating was sort of a burden because of the stress that planning brought with it. but sitting in that chair, looking up at the stands, at my mother, brother, sister, fiancé, and future mom, dad, and sister in laws, cheering me on, made everything so real. walking up to the stage was nerve wracking, but i got that piece of paper and a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. i am a college graduate. people work their whole lives for that moment, and that honor and i have achieved it at the age of 21. a lot of work, money, and craziness went into that, because my college journey was not as smooth as everyone else's. but it got me where i need to be, and i can't complain.
sunday was just as exciting. except it was much hotter, and i nearly passed out, but seeing my father's face after i walked up from the stadium made it all worthwhile. he is so proud of me, and my achievements. i hadn't wanted to go to the big graduation on sunday but i am glad i did, so both of my parents had the opportunity to see me graduate college!
i was really stressed out about college graduation itself, because my parents impending divorce makes arranging family situations much more difficult. dad does not want to be anywhere near mom, but mom wanted to be everywhere. at the same time, dad did nt want to be embarrassed of the divorce around my in laws, and also did not want to see any of my moms family . thankfully, that all worked out well.
as for post graduation worries? well, i was so anxious about not having a job for several months. i am NOT the kind of person who takes unemployment well, because i tend to spend money when i'm not doing anything. i can't sit still. however, i am trying to take it in stride, while focusing on other things, like settling into grad school!
i went from a phase where i LOVED ny, to a phase where i HATED being here, to a phase somewhere in between now. new york is definitely an adjustment. i moved to a brand new place that i still don't know so well, but at least i can get around by walking or subway. but most of all, i moved away from family and friends, and about an hour further from my fiancé. it sucks, but i'm trying. i was blessed with an amazing opportunity and i gotta continue with it!
here's to four years on the banks of the old raritan ! and about a year in the big apple (:
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