not paying attention in neuropsych

which is exactly what i should be doing. oh well.

clearly, i need to stop forgetting i have a blog.
thanksgiving was wonderful, and the rest of fall semester went well too! i earned a 3.375 for the semester, even though i SHOULD have had a 3.5, thanks RU screw. oh well, christmas was great and new years with my boyfriend was perfect.

2012 is off to a great start, looking back on january. christmas break, whatever little time i got with my boyfriend was much needed. i worked every day until the semester started again, but the culmination of API brought carlos a weekend where he wasnt super busy, and was perfect for a visit! i flew down wednesday afternoon on 1/18, and left monday morning on 1/23. visiting him in florida gives us a little taste of typical daily life together- grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, etc. as strange as it was, i loved it, and secretly i know he did too (; it was also really awesome to see one of carlos' best friends since forever, brian, when he drove down to pensacola from columbus, ga. he of course, didnt help in the we-need-to-get-out-of-the-house-and-do-something phase i was in, as they just wanted to watch tv. even so it was a nice relaxing weekend. and seeing jenny and melanie and meeting elizabeth and matt and nick and luis, made it fun too! dinner at shark fin was fun and so was going out to miller's . i personally LOVED the fact that at home there was snow , and i missed it by being in 75 degree january pensacola weather. leaving is probably the worst feeling in the world, and that is how i know that me and carlos are meant for each other.when everything reminds you of that person.

the new semester is going well, although i've been busy with work and interning as well, so i should be trying to focus more on school. my classes are really interesting, surprisingly enough.  i was just accepted into graduate school, so at least i have something. my next project is applying to more schools in new york, and finding a decent salary job while im grad school. my only concern is that i know i am moving after my masters, to wherever carlos gets assigned. i just hope that i dont get screwed over by leaving a job to move.


.i really miss him so much, its definitely a rollercoaster, this distance thing. not cause i dont trust him or vice versa, but simply cause we miss being with each other. hanging out, watching movies, date nights.all that stuff. it just really blows not being able to see your best friend. i haven't seen him since i left, even over webcam. our schedules just clash so badly, and were both exhausted by the end of the day. i can only tell myself to toughen up and get over it so often. sometimes i just want to be sad. another wedding season is coming up, this time with the 2012 girls. its just annoying knowing that i still have over a year or so left of distance. i am hoping we can get married after my masters and carlos' winging- it just seems like the right time, when we both are moving and starting new parts of our lives. why not start together? plus, at that time, we will have been together for over 5 years., and i will be 23 and carlos will be 24 and a half. am i crazy, cause i think that sounds like a good point in time to get married? i dont know. whatever. nothing pisses me off more than people who barely know each other getting married and not having to put up with bullshit like i and so many other women have done. thats the annoying part.

dont get me wrong, im not jealous and im not bitter. im just annoyed, but i know the choice we are making is right and i know itll pan out well.

  however, i am super excited that my good friend samantha is also included in this 'wedding season' , and i couldnt be happier for her and her fiance chris! congratulations sam, if you are reading this.

i guess i should get back to paying attention to this lecture, but i can barely see, my contacts are foggy. who am i kidding, im going to sign up for pinterest now.